How to be creative without going crazy (Creative Fatigue and Depression)

ADD: Badiou, creative process. resistance, rebellion; breaking the norms of what is, standing over the void and leaping. True creativity is always a personal risk AND a social revolution. Add quotes. make it a MAINpost.

A person is most happy when they are submissive to a loving authority.
A person must submit willingly.

If people feel forced to do something they don’t want to do, that’s compliance. That leads to unhappiness, resentment, even crime. To avoid compliance – inducement is the act of seducing someone to your way of thinking, so they love giving you what you want.

How I feel when I’m depressed:

A deep, painful cavity of emptiness in my chest, a longing for something that doesn’t exist. It’s not wanting something that you might actually work towards and achieve – like hope. It’s not just the hopelessness of wanting something you can never have, like an attractive person who has rejected you (or died). It’s the certainty that your emptiness does not have a solution: there is no magic key to unlock the box; there is “nothing” that you’re missing that is causing this profound feeling of sadness, and that’s part of the problem, because it’s your fault.

It shouldn’t exist, because nothing’s wrong; and since nothing is wrong, why should you take a day off work and do nothing. Surely being productive or accomplishing something useful would be better than sitting around feeling sorry for yourself – so you feel terrible when you don’t actually do anything and do sit around feeling sorry for yourself: you’re making stupid choices. You’re incapable of doing what you chose to do. 

And even then: every TV show or movie fails to hold your attention. There is no “distraction” from the fact that you’re a loser, wasting your time away on banal entertainment. An achievement is getting through the whole day until it’s time to sleep again and you can escape from the awful aching void of suckiness and guilt for a few hours until it’s time to do it all again.

From the movie:

  • We long to control and be in control. Real life is pain and disappointment. But fantasy is possibility.

I also started watching Travelers (also time travel). In it, all the gang is depressed after saving the world and no longer having a mission that matters. They have to make up their own meaning or purpose, but can’t, because it’s all so trivial and doesn’t matter.

They also come to realize that, their new identity…

It doesn’t help that:

Some reliefs: 

  • Taking a long walk somewhere natural
  • Starting a campfire and watching the sunset
  • Getting a pet

We feel bad and guilty because we think we should be doing something else, something meaningful – allow yourself to enjoy doing the thing you’re using for escape. Today I’m going to watch the shit out of some Netflix, and binge-watch 12-hour marathon episode sessions… and that’s it. That’s my GOAL and I’m going to accomplish it by setting out to do exactly what I feel like doing. I’m also going to eat two boxes of Cinnamon Toast Crunch.

Lessons: what you do isn’t as important as your mindset.

Your appearance tells the world who you are, and what you want. -everything sucks.
“Joy doesn’t come from having something, or being something… it comes from becoming. Becoming more than you are today.” – Waco.


“Happiness is beneficial for the body, but it is grief that develops the power of the mind.” – Proust, via A Series of Unfortunate Events.

About Derek Murphy

Hey there! I'm a philosophy dropout and book cover designer with a PhD in Literature. After spending a decade as a starving artist, I vowed to create the life of freedom my restless spirit demands. I covet a cabin full of cats, where I can write young adult fantasy novels and do a few editorial critiques to pay for my cake addiction. Sometimes I live in castles. FREE GUIDE: Book Marketing is Dead.